There were days through treatment (and there still are after treatment) that I just felt like crying. Big alligator tears would well up in my eyes and stream down my face. I’m talking the epitome of ugly crying, it would make Kim Kardasian’s ugly cry gif look nice! I learned in nursing school that tears are healing. While that is true, tears are extremely cathartic and it is important to let those emotions out, but I got to a point where I just couldn’t cry any more. I mean I was already dehydrated from chemo, not being able to drink enough, and vomiting; I needed to keep those precious salty fluids in my body! Your girl already had gone in for extra fluids a couple of times! I said in my previous posts that I often cope with humor. If I’m uncomfortable or I don’t want to cry, I make jokes or sarcastic comments. I never would joke at another’s expense, but I will joke about myself all day long. Throughout my diagnosis, treatment and my remission I have laughed and tried to make the best of a really terrible situation. I encouraged others to laugh with me because it just made me feel better! If I could keep laughing at least at one thing every day, I could keep moving forward and trudging on through the trenches of treatment. I didn’t want people to look at me with pity. I wanted to show that you can still enjoy life even when it hands you a s*** card. I started taking photos of myself with “hair look alikes” from being bald to all the stages of chemo hair outgrowth. It was a fun way to document the progress and hopefully brighten other’s days along the way. If you’re reading this and are having an ugly cry, Hallmark movie, pint of ice cream kind of day; that is OKAY and NORMAL! Believe me, I have had plenty of those days over the past two years. Give yourself that day, or couple days, or week! But after the tears stop, I encourage you to find something or someone to give you a smile and laugh! Even if it is a ridiculous Dad joke, Schitt’s Creek, or Tik Tok; just try to find one thing to bring you a little slice of joy! Tears are healing, but laughter can be the best medicine.
Enjoy some of my favorite hair look alikes!
